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First of all, it is good if you can empathize with this story, but just don't feel pity for me, I completely don't need any of those. These years of trauma really make myself even stronger more than ever you imagine. Aamiin.

I just, I'm really tired of feeling this way. I'm tired of always putting on my headset, turning the music up, just tried so hard not to listen to this jerk that screamed, yelled, and talked shit. And others who's cried after.

I'm tired of always holding back my tears every night. I'm tired of always lying to my friends said, "I'm sorry, I'm gonna sleep early tonight," in fact, I just tried to avoid this kind of situation with sleeping. In fact, I really don't feel good at all. Trying to sleep is even harder than it should be, nor woke up in a panic.

I wonder why there are people who are doing abusiveness to woman especially on their own families, without worrying.

I just.. hard to believe it. This feels like a dream. 'Cause after that, I always make myself smile and laugh out loud as if I forgot of what I've gone through and nothing happened.

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In conclusion, never ever blame the world for the reason you act. Never ever use your mental issues as an excuse to do something stupid, harsh, abuse, anything that harm others. 'Cause, I'm sorry, it's just make you look like a complete trash.